Being Felinehearted

Written: April 22, 2023

I've recently come to the conclusion that I'm not a feline or even felinevague but I am felinehearted. I have never been without a cat in my life. The times where I was without a cat were all very short lived. My feelings about felines are very different than my feelings about my theriotype. I'm neutral about my theriotype. Yeah, there is a sense of "that's what I am" and "my kind" but that's about all. I did try feline on as a theriotype. That was missing some components. There was no "same species" vibe. There was a sort of wishing and hamming up the behaviors though I did genuinely identify as a feline for a time. I wasn't mistaken.

Being 'hearted is the difference between "that's what I am/me/my kind" and "I wish that was me" for me. I do experience the latter for being a dog but it's really more like "I wish to be a feline because I'm not one on any level even though I may act like one at times" vs "I want my physical body to match the dog I am". I would not be euphoric if I woke up as a physical feline despite my connection (it isn't me after all) but I would be euphoric if I woke up as a physical dog. That's the nuance between the two.

With that in mind, I still involuntarily exhibit distinctly feline behaviors even though I realized I don't actually identify as one. Unlike with the dog, feline behaviors & urges tend to go away for long periods of time. I believe what I'm experiencing when it seems more like a therianthropy-adjacent experience with some loose degree of "identifying as" is a sort of flicker. A semi-permanent flicker induced by having a connection to all of felidae. When it doesn't seem like that, it's probably more likely just a cameo shift.

I don't really have much more to say. I just wanted to write up an explanation. For further reading, I recommend this: "Common Themes in the Early Animal-hearted Scene"by Atlas of Mossland

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